At the start of 2010, I'd like to thank God
For so many things, on so many occasions and situations I have God to thank for my imperfections so that I would have things which I could improve upon them and feel empowered, enriched and that I've actually lived with purpose and meaning.
Everyday I pray that God grant me wisdom and that's about the only things that came true thus far, but it's also the same thing that makes me feel that everything I have done have been childish and has no end in terms of the improvements I have to make.
Nevertheless, I cannot thank God enough, whoever he is, and I sincerely apologize to people I've offended. Although I can't guarantee it won't happen again (mentioning that I'm imperfect is an understatement actually, because I know what an asshole I was borned and became to be), I'll try to be a better friend, employee, son and in the future, a better employer, manager, father, husband above what have been mentioned.
2010 is going to be a darn good year.
Best
Sunny
P.S. Can't really think of a closing statement, so I'll just end off with one of the greatest lessons I've learnt from the late Jim Rohn, "Work on your job and you'll make a living; work on yourself and you'll make a fortune". However, I've always tried to find a balance between financial support and contentment so this is what I'll say instead, "Work on yourself and you'll make your dreams come true" with humility and sincerity at the foundation of everything. Invest in yourself, reflect, react and re-evaluate upon your actions. All the good things in life are on the higher shelves; better health, happier relationships, greater wealth, and to get to them, we'll have to stand on the books we read. Every book we read, and every time we reflect upon ourselves, we get one step closer.
Many times I question myself the importance of wealth and I think I finally have gotten a clear look at the center piece of the puzzle of why is it necessary. Last month Landy got hurt badly twice and the whole family was oblivious towards the situation, and I, was eager to help, had no money and private transport to bring him to the vet. Yes, it's no use to have money and no love, but at the same time have you felt the helplessness that tears you inside, that you aren't able to provide the most basic form of help and or protect the ones you love in times of need?
Contentment is fundamental to happiness, but don't use it as an excuse for mediocrity, something that I've done unknowingly until now. It has always been an excuse for me to conceal the fear I have that comes with working hard and when taking on new challenges. Hence, it's also until now that I understand the meaning behind the saying, "Mediocrity is the most selfish pursuit". I was really selfish for not wanting to challenge myself, I even forgot my motto of "Others above self", one that I had since I was 17. Really, we don't live this life for ourselves. Do you want to have nothing to teach and nothing to give to the people who matters to you most?
posted by Your masochist, Sunny @ 1/06/2010 10:02:00 PM
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