I usually don't see a need to blog, but recently there's just been too much going through my head. Just need an avenue to write down and organize my thoughts, in a place that my thoughts will be archived and indexed.
Let me just start with the topic about stepping into the real world. The world where you have to tolerate with for the next 30 years. Never did I thought I would have trouble facing it, but guess the fact that I'm losing drive, kind of sets me in vicious cycle. Good news is I discover this early. Bad news is I haven't found the solution. It's the feeling you get that bogs you down when you don't have the answer to a problem.
Lets just say the problem is that I really don't see myself working FOR people for the next 30years. And I'm really losing the guts to make it out there on my own. A few reasons really: lack of experience, support, vision. I am totally aware that the concerns are illusions. E.g People have made it with the lack of experience and support. I have visions and ideas, but the mist created by my lack of experience and support is blurring my sight. What's creating the illusion then? That one can't enterprise without experience? Social norms I guess.
Already chosen the path unconsciously, manipulated by social norms - Is ignorance bliss? I hope that statement's wrong. Unless I have another chance at the fork in the road again, then maybe I'll choose to be ignorant.
You see the cycle? I'm sinking deeper into things I know I shouldn't be getting myself into. And recently, I faced some problems while handling people, also because of knowledge. And yes, I may be the biggest insensitive fool you can ever find. That takes me to the second topic.
Does knowledge bring one further? Or does it confine? The more you learn from others, the higher the tendency to just leverage on what is provided, leveraging on knowledge that has been proven, tested true, safe to use. In business, one learn from others in the field, applying what has worked. In our daily lives, so many things we learn everyday. Seeing people die on the roads after motorbike crashes, maids mistreating babies. Once we learn, we tend to stick to what we know. But if we continue to base their actions on their experience, people in business they'll never become the iconoclast in their field, and in our daily lives, we'll never experience the thrill of motor riding, or the benefits of whatever might bring. Of course, depending on the POV you are coming from, these benefits might potentially be harmful, whatever the example it may be, and I totally agree.
To answer the dilemma, I guess we will have to first train ourselves to be flexible. Train ourselves not to answer, but to adapt. To others, to oneself. Stand by your values, live life the way you want it to be. But please, you don't live your life for yourself. You have responsibilities for others as well. Every decision you make, every action you take affects others. I emphasize, stick by your values, however before you make any major or sub major decision, especially those that benefits you, ensure that you are not negatively affecting others directly or indirectly. If you have to do it despite the collateral harm, jolly well take steps to minimize them.
Plus, if you're thinking about a want, that's going to only benefit yourself and yourself only, please inscribe the following on your specs if you're wearing one, or go get shades have these two words written on the lenses if you lucky to not have myopia like mine - "Delayed Gratification" If you loved marshmallows and you're given one. Then you're told that if you wait a little longer before eating it and you'll get another one, which action would you choose? We come across wants everyday, but what are the opportunity costs of our actions now? This is not a lecture, it's just my self reminder. Hahaha!
Things are easier said than done, I'm a person who loses sight and drive easily too. I have been too comfy all these while thinking that things will roll out the way it want it to be. For the past years I'm at the wall of a vertical cliff suspended by a safety net called 'Comfort Zone', totally oblivious about the dangers. Now the net is slowly detaching itself, I'm finding myself in panic. Unless I do something quick, my imminent death awaits.
So here is my offer, or my call for help, whichever you would like to see it as:
If you think that I have struck a good conversation with you, verbally or in writing, and have the same vision to enterprise, please leave me a message and lets see if we can work things out. If you're serious about taking control of your life, so am I.
posted by Your masochist, Sunny @ 9/27/2008 08:40:00 PM
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